Mother Bala gave, by Her Grace, the Eye of Knowledge to see and realise the Truth. By being around Her Lotus-Feet one can receive the supreme fulfilment of life, Her gift. After rending the lid on the top of the head, and being surrounded by Light, I quickly rushed through wide spaces of heavens. Heavens within heavens were entered. The consciousness moved both upwards and inwards. It crossed six overhead planes which had been screening the Truth. Then I entered into the experience of the Void, the Shunya of Nothingness. But this was not the end.  I felt I was near the Vast Realm of Light which is the Home of Mother Bala who has manifested herself to me in Her splendour of Light. The ascending path to the Home of Grace and Peace was seen. The Golden door opened. I trod the interior path to the Heaven of Mother Bala, and quickly entered into the Vast Realm of Truth-Knowledge. I saw Mother Bala seated in Her form of dynamic and vibrating golden Light in Her own supreme and universal Heaven of Light. I had wonderful visions of Truth, and Bliss coursed through and overflowed my whole being.

Cascades of intensities of the pure Golden Light spread in all directions, and all the spaces were flooded with the golden Light. The Light within the inner Light was realised, and I became one with the consciousness of Light and partook with the Amrita of Bliss.

I entered into the vast Golden Truth-world and realised its vast Golden Light of Truth-Knowledge. There was an enjoyment of the dynamic play of the Lord, His play of the beginningless and endless Bliss. I realised the Supreme Lord with His Shakti Uma as the Two-in-one in the vast Golden Realm of Truth, which even the great gods fail to see. I realised Him as the Lord of my soul and self, present everywhere and bestowing His Grace on the devoted faithful in the depths of their hearts.

I saw the supreme Lord, realised union with Him, and verily became Himself. The birth, maintenance and destruction of the universe take place in the heart of the supreme Lord; it was seen. My being got fused and absorbed in the eternal Ananda which is beginningless and endless. Verily it became that.

There all the crores of heavens and worlds and the physical cosmic bodies, namely, the sun, planets, earth, moon and stars, were seen whirling like atoms. I saw them with the eye of Grace.

I realised the vast and supreme golden Light of Grace in its own Home of Truth which is without beginning and end. I became the pure consciousness of the dynamic golden Light of Truth. The source of the secret Truth of the Vedas was found, and that without one’s learning to know of it. I realised the supreme Light (Shuddha Param Jyoti ) spreading, from far beyond above, in all directions.

In the supreme and pure existence which is without day and night the unity of the all-containing supreme Existence (Eka Poorana) was realised. It was realised also as the one infinite and eternal bliss of the supreme Consciousness.

The world of play of Truth-knowledge is found in the depth of silence. The whole universal movement is the play of the Lord of the Truth-world, the play of knowledge-will, the play of the beginningless and the endless Ananda. The earthly life shall get changed into a play of Bliss when one annihilates the ego and realises the supreme Lord who has extended Himself as the universe.

Presented by Srikant Jivarajani who found these writings of Gangadharan in some of his old papers