It is a deep experience in meditation that one is down in the physical consciousness and that the Divine is something up there, so far away. But there is at once the divine Presence everywhere, “not up there: here, here itself.” This wonderful pervasiveness brings Power as well as Sweetness, and one gets the feeling that it could melt a rock. That Sweetness—the Mother would later describe the Smile of the supreme Lord, a smile that knows everything. And the amazement is, it is the experience of the body, material, the experience of the body: there is only That, all is That, That, there is nothing but That. “But then why do people always go up there?” And the answer comes: “Because they want me to be very far from their consciousness!” There is a feeling that He is everywhere, and we do not know it because we are shrunken. The sense of separation comes from this. It was “to find out the fact of the separation, everything appearing so stupid, so ugly. I was assailed, assailed by various living memories of all kinds of experiences, memories of this body, all the memories that might be called ‘anti-divine’, in which the body had the sensation of something that was repulsive or evil, like negations of the divine Presence.” Here is the Horror of Creation, the horror experienced by Aswapati in Savitri, his descent into the Night. The fact of the separation—the body tries but not with success. That which appears as separate, but it is the distortion of the consciousness. There is the physical suffering, a physical suffering that lasts. “And then all of a sudden, instead of being in this state of consciousness, you are in that of this exclusive divine Presence. Pain gone! And it was physical, altogether physical, with a physical reason.” It is just a small beginning. It is still an experience, not an established fact, that nothing else exists, that that alone is present—it is not yet so. This notion of the Supramental “coming down”, and a Consciousness “having entered”, is our translation. All things happen within Him, consciously. And we are like “grains of sand in this Infinity; only, we are the Lord with the capacity to be conscious of the Lord’s consciousness. That is exactly what it is.”

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